Rejection.

I did not get the internship at io9 I applied for. Probably because I write sentences which end in prepositions. And sentence fragments. I do that too. Usually.

I’m a little wounded about this and spent yesterday afternoon licking my pen wielders (hands, for you mortals) and staring into my soul. It was pretty dusty. Note to self: use Pledge on soul.

I know only losers quit when the chips are down so I will not give up, but GOD I WANT TO GIVE UP SO BADLY. <—–loser.

I’m not sure what to do with myself now. The journalism community is a, er, strange one: withholding, jealous, and incapable of returning emails to anyone in a timely manner. Jobs are scarce and the competition is overwhelming and peopled by Harvard degree shaped young persons with perfect comma placement and diamond encrusted resumes. All I have is an over active imagination and a jar of pennies. It’s a really big jar of pennies, though so that’s…something. Right?

23 comments

1 Kristen { 05.21.09 at 9:23 am }

Oh dear. I’m so sorry they don’t see the brilliantness that we do. Your fan club still loves you…

2 kiala { 05.21.09 at 9:24 am }

Thank you Crissy. *sniff* *hug*

3 Alison Hallett { 05.21.09 at 9:26 am }

Wha? That doesn’t even make sense to me. I thought you had that for sure—your writing is easily as smart and funny as anything on that site.

I know I’m supposed to say something encouraging about God kicking down doors and stormproofing windows (?), but fuck that. I09 is jerks.

4 kiala { 05.21.09 at 9:29 am }

Oh Alison. You just made me cry. JERK.

(AM I IN PORTLAND YET PLEASE?)

5 charley { 05.21.09 at 9:40 am }

Ah, come on. You’re fine. You never know why you don’t get the call. I get to see the other side of the process now, and trust me, with the volume of submissions it’s nearly mathematically impossible to get the most qualified candidates based on resumes and writing samples.

I’ve also seen awful writers get decent jobs by using a portfolio full of clips that good editors had rewritten for them. It’s a shitty, shitty game.

Did I ever I tell you that the internship that got it all started for me was one that I applied to twice? The first time they didn’t respond at all. I tried again six months later and they hired me and eventually ended up giving me a real job (at a magazine that next week will publish its last print issue ever, by the way). The people I met there were directly responsible for my current job.

In other words, is it too late to go to law school?

6 B { 05.21.09 at 9:40 am }

Stick with it. I tried journalism once. I spent six months interning at a weekly and, after months and months of sending out resumes, I was offered a gig out of state. I opted to stay in Oregon but now I’m miserable and stuck in a job I despise. Long story short, I wish I had stuck it out instead of going the easy route. Follow your dreams and all that jazz.

7 Graham { 05.21.09 at 9:55 am }

Nex just quit his job at Wired. You could apply for that job. Even though he seemed to hate it.

They need some double-X chromosomes up in their gaming blog. It’s all sausage party right now.

8 ken { 05.21.09 at 9:56 am }

salvation is at the bottom of the bottle.

9 Cokeman { 05.21.09 at 10:06 am }

Isn’t this when you’re supposed to venture out on your own and do your own thing? Make your own waaaaaves.

10 Robert { 05.21.09 at 11:04 am }

Hey! If it is any consolation, I’ve never heard of the website io9 until this very moment! And I’m a web pro!*

* not true

11 V. { 05.21.09 at 11:51 am }

The end result isn’t what you hoped but merely applying gave you momentum, got things started. The thing is, you never really know where the true opportunity lies.

And yeah, they blew it by not hiring you. The site’s a snooze.

12 Kiala { 05.21.09 at 11:53 am }

YOU GUYS. hugz.

13 LiLu { 05.21.09 at 12:23 pm }

I’m with Robert! I don’t even know those bastards. And now I don’t want to! Hmph!

14 Intern Meagan Misses You { 05.21.09 at 12:50 pm }

Just remember the poem I wrote you. It’s all true. Loves to you!

15 Kiala { 05.21.09 at 12:53 pm }

You did write me the best poem ever. EVER.

16 Amber { 05.21.09 at 1:02 pm }

I realize I’m new to the commenting world here but I’ve been reading your blogs for some time (though that seems to have a creepy ring to it) and I think you are brilliantly funny, creative, and have a superb writing voice. Things happen for a reason so use this “rejection” to fuel some other creative avenue.

17 kiala { 05.21.09 at 1:07 pm }

Hi Amber! Let us enfold you into the warm and sexy and inappropriate arms of this community. We love you.

Now take your pants off. #boners

18 sarah { 05.21.09 at 2:03 pm }

i prefer you writing to most any day! i like the funny and the fragments.

19 good times { 05.21.09 at 2:54 pm }

Anytime you need a friend. Not getting hassled, not getting hustled.
Keeping your head above water, making a wave when you can.

20 bwp { 05.21.09 at 3:24 pm }

If I had cash monies, I would hire you to write whatever you wanted just so I could read it and be all happy in my heart. But really, I kind of (definitely) have a girl crush on you and I don’t understand why someone wouldn’t hire you. *shakes fist at sky*

21 melissasparkleypantslion { 05.22.09 at 8:58 am }

A. i09, please go and suck it. Plus i09 is hard to type.

B. New Media!!!!!

22 Will Radik { 05.25.09 at 10:18 pm }

wtf is i09? If I don’t know what it is, it’s probably not that important. So yeah.

23 Random Guy on the street { 06.02.09 at 11:17 am }

It seems a couple of sports quotes are needed:

“I’ve missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I’ve lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I’ve been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I’ve failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.”
–Michael Jordan

“Everyone has a plan ’till they get punched in the mouth. ”
–Mike Tyson

Kiala-
It’s easy to get mired in self-pity (or an Effexor binge) so DON”T DO IT!!! Keep moving in the right direction and you’ll get there…and yes, your style is…unique…but certainly endearing, otherwise you wouldn’t have such a loyal following.

-Random Guy On The Street

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